Colour run!

Hey guys!

So for my birthday this year I'm turning 16 and I've decided to do a colour run. It's happening in September and I think it's a really fun way to raise money for charity. For those of you who don't know what it is, it's basically a 5k run where you get covered with brightly coloured powder like this:

I think it's really awesome! After the run there's a really cool festival as well so I really encourage you guys to take part! I'm doing the London run but they have them all over America and the UK now. It's £25 to enter- that's for any amount of people and it all goes to charity so it's really good. 

Recently I have been obsessed with 90210, I haven't stopped watching it. I'm on season three already it's nearly finished and i really don't want it to finish. I went through a phase of being obsessed with Gossip Girl and I cried when that finished. Oh, recently I went to see The Fault in our Stars at the cinema which was literally the most life-changing film I have ever seen. When I finished watching it, every other film seemed insignificant. I mean don't get me wrong I'm a huge Divergent and Hunger Games fan but both the books and the films seem so puny and a waste of time compared to The Fault in Our Stars. I don't know maybe it's because it's more real but I definitely felt it more.

Love xxx

Truth?

Hello,

Why does everything seem real but ends up being a big old lie? I don't get why people don't just tell the truth these days. Personally, I've always been a fan of honesty and I pretty much think it's the best policy but I do sometimes have a hard time telling the truth, like everyone does. I lie about cleaning my room or doing my homework just like any other teenage girl, but sometimes I make up stuff or twist stories to make them more interesting. I know I shouldn't do this but it's so easy and it makes me feel more popular. 

Anyways gtg sleep

Love xxx

Some depressing news...

Hello,

So a couple of days ago I found out that my best friend's friend had committed suicide. She wasn't in school yesterday and is not coping with it very well. I just don't know how to respond to death. No one in my life has ever died and I just don't know how to cope. Today I also got an A star in Spanish yay and 13/16 in my History test. Got an ambassador interview tomorrow which I'm really nervous about. I just have to be confident about it and it'll be fine. 

Do you ever just feel like your head is so heavy with thoughts that you find it hard to breathe? That's what I feel like right now. My head is like a fish bowl with millions of little fish swimming around my mind, so many I can't count them. It's getting so heavy that I can no longer keep it up and I feel like I'm about to collapse with the weight of it. I'm trying desperately but getting up in the morning is becoming harder and harder knowing that everyday at school is a stress. 

Seeing him is the worst part. Knowing that I'll never be with him or be able to tousle his gorgeous blonde hair and knowing I'll never be able to wake up to that smile. Or all the exams. Or the homework. As if we don't have enough work to do at school for 8 hours then they give us like 4 hours more homework. Along with revision. How does that make sense? Oh and then they expect us to eat well and exercise and sleep for 8 hours and attend extra-curricular clubs and spend time with our families. 

Anyway sorry to be so depressing xxx

Him

Hey guys,

So today started off well- I got told that I had managed to somehow get an interview for applying to be an Ambassador next year in school. Not something I expected but something that I'm pretty grateful for as one of my friends didn't get in and she was devastated. 

Then on the way to physics, I walked past him. He was wearing a tight white t shirt and his perfect blond hair just shined (even in the horrible school lights). Ugh he just makes me so angry you know? But so ecstatic and excited at the same time. When I see him I feel like I want to burst and hit things, I have no idea why. But I have to say he needs a new shoe wardrobe. He wears these horrible green adidas' everyday to school and I don't think I can cope with seeing them anymore. That's one thing I would do as his girlfriend- buy him new shoes. 

Anyway, so after that perfect encounter I had lessons blah blah blah and break blah blah blah until finally lunch arrived. After lunch I had double History which was really fun- we did role plays and my friend was Hitler (her glued on moustache was truly realistic). Finally school finished but oh no the day wasn't over yet... Every other Tuesday I attend maths classes at Kings College because I am a "high ability student". If I'm honest I learn more in a few of those maths sessions than I do in a whole year of maths at school. We are usually taught by "barefoot Bill"; an eclectic man with a ginger beard who for some reason never seems to wear any shoes while teaching. The strange thing is we never even see him take them off as he walks into the classroom- it seems as if he doesn't own a pair of shoes. He teaches very well, despite the odd pong from his toes, and really gets you involved with the maths. There are only a few other students there with us from another school as most of them got out of those sessions as fast as they could. 

As I was leaving today's session with my friend, one of the boys who also goes to the session waited for us at the end of the street. I thought this was slightly strange as I don't even know his name. Expecting him to simply make a snarky comment and walk away I carried on walking however he said,
"You know bronies?"
At this point I was totally unaware of what "bronies" were but nodded politely and smiled anyway as that's the sort of girl I am. (I later found out that bronies are unexpected adult men who are fans of the TV series my little pony). He talked at us for a while, hoping to engage us with his attempted jokes and stories that seemed to go on forever. I tried to get out of the conversation a number of times:
"We really should go" I'd say
or "Nice to meet you." 
But he wouldn't stop. We must have been there about ten minutes discussing vegemite, Australians and the nostalgia critic before he finally left. 

Anyway, I'll post tomorrow about my very exciting life :) *sarcasm intended*

Love xxx

What I did today...

Hello!

So this is just like a quick review of my day today... Sorry it's dull but I'm dull so...

What I did today:

- Took my Biology GCSE exam which went awfully.
- Had a work experience interview at a solicitor's- I got the placement!
- Ate an oatmeal cookie at subway because I needed to use their toilet.
- Saw an Indian guy with an afro combing his moustache on the tube.
- Listened to Arctic Monkeys, a lot
- Also listened to Echo Smith's new album- soooo good 

Love xxx

Tumblr blog!

Good evening! :)

Today was a good day- I studied and then went to the park but I ate wayyyy too much. I've put on a lot of weight recently, I think it's the stress of school and I missed a period, so I think stress is seriously messing with me.

Anyways, I'd really like to up my followers on Tumblr- it's http://starryy-th0ughts.tumblr.com/ btw, but I don't wanna ask for promos or anything cos it seems weird. Like, I want people to follow me because they like my blog, not so they can get promoted. My blog doesn't really have a style tbh I just reblog what I like and occasionally post pics. Most of my text posts are done on here though.

Gtg sleep

Luv ya xxx

The internet is broken so I'm outside today...

Hello!

Today was pretty much just an ordinary school day. 

You see the problem is, I feel like I don't go outside anymore... The internet has taken over my life and I only ever go outside when it's broken. I feel trapped inside a world full of messages and pictures that follow me everywhere I go. I think I just really need to get out you know? I need a holiday free from technology. Why do we feel compelled to constantly check social media? Why am I so addicted to scrolling through pictures on tumblr? I really don't know. 

Anyway, mini rant over

Love xxx

New phone case?!

Hello everyone! 

Today was a fun day- I went on a trip to the Bethnal Green Museum of Childhood with my school which was much better than I expected. Soooo I'm considering getting a new phone case but I don't know what to get. At the moment I have a pink penguin one but I feel like I'm getting too old for that now... I also have a mint green one but it's super dirty?! I need one that won't get dirty... Ugh I have no idea.

Sorry this was a short one- speak soon

Love xxx

Mini Universes Full of Shooting Stars

Hey!

So it's been a while...

Not much is happening in my life right now if I'm honest. I have lots of exams and stress so I'm just focusing on revision and haven't had much time for anything else. I have been trying to pick up on little things and appreciate things that I wouldn't usually. Like when I'm walking to school, I try to look at the bark on the trees or the clouds more closely.

Today I became totally intrigued by eyes. I mean just look at how gorgeous they are. They're tiny universes that we can delve in and out of with millions of shooting stars. The other day I saw a post on Tumblr about some eye doctors and someone asked them what they have learnt most from their job and they replied:

"The eye cannot see what the mind does not know"

I think this is a really wonderful quote to leave you with and to think about how we only perceive what we want to perceive.

Anyways gtg meditate now,

Love xxx